Riverside Update from ICU

Wednesday, January 20th, 2010.

New Updates from ICU on Gina

• Gina's weekend was pretty good. I think she finally got some much needed rest where she had more than her normal four hours. I think she finally slept most of a day and part of next without much pain interfering with her slumber.
• The heartrate and blood pressure has been pretty consistent; although, we had at least two or three scares where her heart was only low 30's and an uncomfortable pause in her heartbeats.
• The medicine was adjusted and she seems to have been doing well the last few days. Ironically, but not surprisingly, Gina seems to already be developing a slight tolerance for the meds; eventhough her levels of doesage are way up there.
• Although it seems Gina is struggling each day physically, her spirit and mind are both driving on and not wanting to give up. For all of us that know and spent some time with Gina, this is no surprise as she is known for her high spirits and iron will.
• I took some extra time tonight, while alone in Gina's room and stood next to her bedside, holding her hand or rubbing her cheeks and began to read the posts you have all put on this page. I can barely read any of the posts straight through, without tears welling up or running down my cheeks. I think the tears are not only because of the kind and loving words you wrote, but, also because I can see myself with Gina when most of those memories were being made.
• It is so hard to picture a world without Gina. It is even more devastating to try and imagine what life will be like without my beautiful wife and best friend there by my side. I prayed a thousand times over for answers to why it is this way - no response was given. I know GOD is up there and listening and although my Faith is being tested every moment, I try to keep my chin up and tell myself there is a greater plan for Gina.
• Gina has had some very challenging struggles through this battle with such a hateful disease. I know she made us all a little bit stronger and helped those she touched to dig a little deeper and overcome many things. I thank all of you for being there - from the words on this post to the anonymous gift cards left at our doorstep. You are all very much appreciated and loved. I know one of my faults is not knowing when to ask for help but I am ever so grateful for all of you that are standing by just waiting for that day. Thanks again to each and every one of you.

I will try to keep the updates coming as often as possible. I thank all of you for being there and the whole family has been here supporting Gina and sitting here with her daily. God bless you all!