The days and nights seem to blend seamlessly together. It's ironic how sometimes you are constantly reminded of the time and others (like now) you lose sight of the hours and days. Life is a precious gift that I will never take for granted. The people that come and go in our lives affect us in more ways than we realize. I know what it is like to find a special connection with someone who touches your very soul. The times both good and bad that you share with that special person are etched forever in you heart and soul. My love for Gina is based on all of those beautiful memories we shared as a couple and as best friends. I am grateful to have been truly blessed with Gina in my life, hand-in-hand and why I can truly call her my one and only soulmate!
Updates from Day 22 in ICU
- Gina's heart rate is all over the place - jumping from lov 50 or 60's to 150's and even 170's! The blood pressure is mostly steady but she has trouble getting oxygen.
- Gina still has a lot of fluid built up in her chest area and I feel it must make it very difficult for her heart to pump the blood and oxygen correctly. I feel so helpless watching her hour after hour with so many problems and for the first time I can remember, I feel truly helpless towards her. I do what I can to rub her head, whisper how much she means to me and how loved she is by family & friends alike. I really think she is able to hear my words and that they give her a bit of comfort inside that lonely place she is now.
- I pray endlessley to GOD to give her the peace and comfort she so desperatley needs! I keep my Faith up although it is too hard to understand why or how I can with so much going on with my wife.
- It is very difficult for all the family to watch Gina who was always so young and free-spirited! You all said it exactly right - that beautiful smile of hers lit the room like a million candles in the darkest night. I keep that image inside my head and when the tears can no longer be held back, I think of that smile and how it made made all around feel so good inside.
- Gina always tried her best to make those she met feel better about themselves. The amazing thing is she did it so effortlessly and modestly. Remember Gina for that day she picked you up, or that lap arounf Bishop McNamara when she could barely walk from the car to the campsite on relay day! That is what Gina needs to feel free, happy friends and family thinking of her again.
- I think it is getting closer to the time that GOD feels he needs Gina more in Heaven with him then we down here with us. I try not to be selfish when I ask GOD why now and I remind myself of the beautiful life I shared with her.
- I will keep all posted as often as I can but know that the next few days feel like they are going to be an eternity that passes at the speed of light.
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Oh Bobby, how beautifully put. Gina is and will always be a breath of fresh air to all who experienced knowing her and her friendship. There are very few people in this world like that. You're also right about the way Gina would pick anyone up around her that was down and out. I remember her bringing me a plant when I decided to move out of the beauty shop. She knew I was unsure of the move and was feeling low. She knew we would miss each other. While she did hair she ALWAYS complimented people and made them feel special while they were in her chair. She always went the extra mile. Even if that person wasn't as friendly to her. She loves her family more than life. She never let people see if the cancer got her down. She was always asking the next person what she could do for them even though she was fighting to keep herself from getting sick from chemo. She protected her children, wouldn't accept dinners from people because she wanted to be strong for as long as she could be and cook HERSELF for her family. She wanted so badly to feel normal as long as she could. I'm so thankful that her beautiful baby girl came while she could still enjoy the joy of her. Bobby, don't be upset that Gina is feeling lonely in her own little world right now. I believe that she is getting ready to enter the other world. She may be seeing Jesus, or Heaven, or the angels or even people she loves that are already waiting for her like her grandma. I don't believe a God that is so good would let her be suffering inside right now. Maybe when she moans now and you think its pain, maybe she isn't feeling it like we think we would be. Maybe Jesus is sparing her from all of this. We have such a loving Christ. He's keeping you going, the kids going, the family... Maybe all you need to do is just hold Ginas hand and let her know its ok to leave now. That she did a good job in preparing you by sticking around so long. But that now is her time. I will forever be grateful that she was my friend, my confidant, my sister in Christ and that I will NEVER forget her onry laugh and beautiful smile and like you said her totally free spirit. She LOVED God, her family and her life to the fullest a person could ever hope to. What a life she has taught all of us to have, to appreciate and to love. I will miss her more than words can ever express.
Gina - You must miss being free. You're probably feeling so weary of having a body that won't do what you want it too. When you're with Jesus, your spirit will be truly free. You'll run and laugh, and be happy again. That's hard for the rest of us, but I'm going to really try to celebrate and be happy for you. You deserve to be free. Love, Jody, Dave, Riley and Cami
Bobby, I am amazed that you can be as strong as you are!! To be by Gina's side through all she has endured and still keep all of us informed!! You truly are an amazing man!! Gina has been blessed to have you as you have been blessed to have her!! I think everyone who has followed this site has learned that we all need to realize what we have and cherish every moment with all of our loved ones!!! Please know that hardly a moment goes by that your family is not in out thoughts!! We pray for peace for Gina and know that God sent her here to teach us all what true love and friendship is all about!! God blessed us with her presence and when he takes her home she will be in all of our hearts!! may peace be with your family soon. Tim,Donna,Tiffany,Brandon and Anna Jones
Bobby thank you for the updates on Gina. Ur a strong man. U are right about Gina being able to make other people happy. O by the way u gotta tell her for me that my ma actually has her hair grown out. For the longest time she kept bugging my ma to grow her hair out and now she did and loves it. Gina could always make anyone smile. God Bless her and the family. Our love and prayers is with u.
Love Kim Smith and family
Bob,
I just arrived home from the Celebrate Marriage evening at ONU.
It was an enjoyable evening although Clint was unable to join me due to last minute work deadlines. I have gained a better understanding of how to improve communication between us and make our married life be the best it can be. All sounds good in theory... I
have learned that the union between man and woman(when lived out as God intended) is the closest glimpse of what Heaven is like that we can truly experience here on earth. Those that don't know God will see
Christ in us by our LOVE. Some married couples may experience those glimpses on rare occasions throughout their married life. The love that you and Gina share for each other is such a beautiful example for all that know you. I
see Christ so clearly in both of you. Thank you for sharing your love for each other with us. I too
believe that our merciful and loving
God is holding Gina's hand and gently carrying her in his arms on her journey home. Knowing Gina she's
telling Jesus "Put me down", and "Can I carry you,Lord?" Why would we expect Gina to do things
differently now!? What a legacy of love she leaves us until the day when we will be with her again in a place where we are promised only love,joy and peace. No more suffering. No more pain. God's graces will get Gina through this final journey. I
continue to pray that God's graces
will shower you and your family at this time to give you strength, comfort,and return to you the love
you have reflected to us.
In Christ may you sleep peacefully
tonight. Jean
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when as
God intended
Bobby you bring tears to my eyes as I remember special times we shared. I remember the time you got hurt at regionals the smiles you both shared telling of the night and her special sling for you. Thank you for having come into mine and Jessicas life when we needed to meet people as special as you and your family. Having lost my soulmate I admire your strength in this time I hope they meet in heaven as they are both great people.
Love and prayers,
Sue Allen
The Lord is my shepherd,
I shall not want;
He makes me lie down in green pastures.
He leads me beside still waters;
He restores my soul.
He leads me in paths of righteousness for His name's sake.
Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death,
I fear no evil;
for You are with me;
Your rod and Your staff, they comfort me.
Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life;
and I shall dwell in the house of the Lord forever.
Psalm 23
Bob you are so thoughtful that in your hardest times you keep us updated. I thank you with all my heart for doing this..Gina has touched me and my family in so many ways and is the most wonderful person i know. I wish I could have some of her strength and wisdom. she is an angel and all i ask of God is to have her be at peace and not hurt anymore.you are all in my prayers and thoughts every moment of everyday..feel the love that the bishop's are sending you and we are always always always here for you all.. lots of love Bill,Maureen, Brett and Brittany.
bob,
you touch our hearts with each and every post. thank you for bringing us closer to gina. as we all prepare to say good bye to gina, heaven must be celebrating........
(((HUG))) sending love & prayers
To Bob and Family,
Thank you for allowing us to take this journey with you. Even though this is one of pain, we can all grow and learn what a gift that she gave. To seek each moment and live it to it's fullest. To share our love with each other and ask nothing in return.We all have to face this moment in our life, it is part of life. But if we can see past the pain and look into the heart we will find Gods message. She did win! She had her Victory! Her Victory is to help us all understand and listen to the message she gave , not in mere words but in living action! Pray for us Gina to better understand and live the gift to gave!
Steven Lemner
you have a wonderful blog. thanks for sharing your life and experience here. keep it up and never give up. you can do it.
you have a wonderful blog. thanks for sharing your life and experience here. keep it up and never give up. you can do it.
you have a wonderful blog. thanks for sharing your life and experience here. keep it up and never give up. you can do it.
you have a wonderful blog. thanks for sharing your life and experience here. keep it up and never give up. you can do it.
you have a wonderful blog. thanks for sharing your life and experience here. keep it up and never give up. you can do it.
you have a wonderful blog. thanks for sharing your life and experience here. keep it up and never give up. you can do it.
you have a wonderful blog. thanks for sharing your life and experience here. keep it up and never give up. you can do it.
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I really do not know who Gina is but she seems like a nice person so all I can say is good luck to her
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